Goodness, I miss being able to be creative. Photography/writing/drawing/anything. My creative time is restricted to three and half hours a week in the form of Art lessons at college. And even then I can't be fully creative, because it's all doing things to get good grades which most of the time I don't really want to do. Miss being shutter-happy. Actually the most creative I get at the moment is deciding what to wear in the morning to college. That's fun. Haha. They said it would be hard. They said it would go fast. Course, you never quite believe them, and of course, they're always right. They've been doing this for years after all, they should know better than anyone else. But they also should know how and when to crack the whip and when to back off. No wonder a staggering statistic of teenagers commit suicide because of GCSE's. And that's in two years. I'm doing it in 9 months (3 months, 22 days, 2 hours, 50 minutes and 1 second until they're over), hence why I've had more mental breakdowns these past six months more than I have in my whole life. Oh what the hell, it's character building as they say. Haha. It certainly is, frightenly so. I have changed so much. For the worst or for the better? Both. I've toughened up a lot. That's good and bad. Causes me to be even more closed off than I was before (I hear you scream "oh my is that even possible?!" Apparently so) but at the same time more confident and outgoing. Tell me to stop when I'm confusing you (which will probably be soon). Vee says I'm afraid of commitment of any sort (it was a joke). BUT she's probably right. I'm afraid of a lot of things. (Fire to start with... there's that huge debate. How would you rather die? Burn to death or drown? Bit of a no brainer, DROWN.) Also become a bit morbid. But that's because I'm in a normal laid back typical London college with a load of drop-outs, kick-outs, and wastes. But I love them all. They're all great deep-down even though they chat rubbish. Most people do anyway. ALSO scared of failure, too scared. Good 'ol NASA for "failure is not an option". Cheers. N' good 'ol perfectionist B. She's good at everything, never gets anything wrong and even if she does, you'd never know. Never shows that anything's wrong. PDE (public displays of emotion) do not exist! Busy... never sits down for a secound. Played that game, if you had to describe someone in one word what would it be? WORKAHOLIC and SECRETIVE... were the answers for me. Oh so true. Rambler should have also been on that list. Hah. And anti-social, though that probably comes under secretive. Oh well. Made loads of good friends. I'm actually SETTLED, and in ENGLAND. Goodness, it's a scary revelation. What's even scarier is I'm thinking it might be a good idea for me to stay another year and do my A-levels in one year. Yes, shoot me now before I turn even more insane and start to contract signs of rabbies or something. Oh yes this all sounds very negative and all. But it's not, surprisingly. Haha... Ramble away B, for you are being creative. 
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